Lack of updates

I understand that this isn't my personal journal but a journal for me to record interesting intellectual bits that I find and want to record or look further into, but I'm currently interested in myself as an interesting intellectual big and I want to explain why I haven't found anything to add here in a while.

I wasn't too far into my mania-driven MOOC frenzy when I realized that I had over-committed myself and that there was absolutely no way I would be able to keep up with the demands of the courses. As I was taken over by the crash, my reading comprehension and speed slowed down and I got overwhelmed with the sheer amount of work. In other words, I let every single course fall by the wayside and spent weeks in bed watching Law and Order and Castle. I was able to unenroll from most of the courses, which is good because otherwise they would have been adding to the clutter of my mind and causing more paralyzing anxiety.

I am beginning to re-enter the world, though I am trying to be very careful. My head is telling me that it would be no problem to finish my applications, take a Logic MOOC to assist in the writing and editing parts, and do all sorts of other things in very little time. However, day after day I find myself playing a video game that I can't tear myself away from for long enough to read even one article straight through and before long all of that time is up.

This is something I need to continue working on, as I don't think I'll make it through college without being able to sit down and commit to one thing without getting up. I need to make a more generous schedule and observe how long it would take a normal person to complete a project and aim for a little over that time rather than relying on the manic part of my brain pick up the slack.

I have a Cognitive Behavioral Therapy book that I picked up on one of those family trips to the self-help section at Barnes and Noble, which I think would be very helpful but I can't help but avoid reading it due to the irony of being distracted from other things to do so.